Justin

Today is the ninth anniversary of my brother Justin's death. I really miss him.
We took some yellow tulips to the cemetary tonight and I had a little cry.
I think that having him around would make some hard things easier.
The kids would have loved him and I know they would have really made him laugh. He'll be a very fun uncle. I miss talking to him.
He had such a light in his eyes, a twinkle that made me smile and made me suspicious...he was so mischievious. A kind-hearted tease! He was passionate about music and food and sports and stocks. He was very social and loved people. I feel like I missed out by being away at college for the last few years of his life, though I was home for summers and holidays. But he was always busy off with his buddies, the way it should be. The last time I saw him was the week Spencer & I got married. I talked to him on the phone after we went back to Utah, but it was less than four months later that he died. It was the last day of my last BYU finals and we were headed home. I wish he could have waited so I could say good-bye. But my Mom says it was better to remember him how he was earlier. He was very strong. He let his spirit rule his body in every way he could.
I am happy for him. I know he is busy doing important things and I know that whatever he is doing, he is having fun. He made everything fun. This is just a little "Thinking of You/Happy Birthday"...I love you!!!!